Exploring Vancouver:

Places To Visit In South Granville

A recent visit to Vancouver reveals how much the city has changed…and how much it hasn’t

It’s part of a neighborhood called South Granville, a few blocks that represents just a section of one Vancouver’s major streets. Granville is one of the city’s major arteries and stretches several kilometers south, from the dense core of downtown to the Arthur Liang Bridge, which leads to the airport.

Some of Vancouver looks different, but a lot of it still looks the same. This part of town always smelled like freshly cut grass and old money, so compared to places like the West End, not a lot has changed on South Granville. I didn’t spend a lot of time in this neighborhood when I lived in Vancouver, so it was interesting to explore a new (well, new to me, anyway) part of town. It’s walking distance from Granville Island and on several convenient bus routes, so not only is it pedestrian friendly, it’s easy to hop on a bus and explore other Vancouver neighborhoods.

I discovered that Vancouver transit is a lot less annoying when you have no schedule and have nowhere to be. Just goes to show, like we always used to say, that the system is built for tourists and always has been.

Muse Cannabis

Canada is one of the few countries that has legalized cannabis use, and the industry that has popped up in the last tens years is impressive. Some might say the commercialization has gone too far, and they’re right, but this beats the holy shit out of dodging the RCMP. Given that I have to do the old-school dealer bullshit back in Mexico (not exactly illegal here but that’s another post), I appreciated this.

Muse has three locations throughout the city, and all of them are upscale cannabis retail sales, the very pinnacle of Canadian legalization. In keeping with the aesthetic of this particular neighborhood, Muse on Granville resembles a restored 19th century library. The wooden shelves are lined with various cannabis products and there’s a cozy sitting area in front of a fireplace near the front door. This is where my partner chills out while I spend a silly amount of time browsing the wares, which range from edibles to flower to pre-rolls.

Yes, the prices are rather high, but holy mother of god, of course you’re going to pay top dollar for weed that’s 35% THC, and that’s not even close to the maximum number. I highly recommend you splurge on a few pre-rolls and chill out in a nearby plaza to enjoy some Vancouver weather.

Sushi Umi

Located at the lower end of this stretch, a block away from the stately class of Muse, Sushi Umi also has a quaint little patio in addition to a glowing wood dining room. There are only three tables out there so it’s kind of a secret. The weather was so damn nice this week that we ate outside on both visits.

There’s a great selection of all the rolls – Dynamite, California, and BC, just to name a few. There are also the usual fun ones, like Rainbow and Caterpillar. My personal favorite is the Dragon Roll, which is basically a Dynamite Roll with grilled unagi on top. The menu includes raw oysters, when they’re in season, in addition to all of the best Japanese appetizers. I love the seaweed salad.

Meinhart’s Fine Foods

They aren’t kidding. The main entrance opens up to the deli. Good luck getting past that shiny stretch of mouth-watering goodies. This is an upscale location, just like the sign says, and it shows in the products. This whole store could be just the deli and they’d do just fine, but there’s a whole store of upscale edibles to discover.

When people talk about Vancouver being for the wealthy and pretentious, this is what they mean. Even the junk food is represented by designer name brands. They do a lot of gift boxes and catering, and it feels like the grocery store is an extension of the bigger operation in the background. Those gift baskets aren’t cheap either, you can check on the website. But for now, it’s just damn fun to browse the fancy snacks and fresh flowers.

Small Victory Bakery

The heigh ceilings and low-hanging light give Small Victory Bakery the feel of a rustic warehouse. The interior design of this place is as impressive as the rows of bread, pastries, and gigantic ovens. It has a rustic tone of brick and metal that reminds me of a place you might see in Gastown.

We’re in line for bread, and there’s a whole selection of succulent loaves. It seems like the kind of place where you’d by chunks of hearty products, so the variety of small, delicate pastries might take you by surprise. There’s seating inside and out, and coffee is also on the menu, which includes food items for brunch and lunch. So much avocado toast, it makes us laugh.

The Breakfast Table

I’m a fucking pig for eggs benny in any form, so I’m focused on that part of the menu. They’ve got six different varieties, in addition to the Asian-inspired Classics section that includes Japanese, Korean, and Thai dishes. Thanks to my partner, I get to experience the sweet side of the menu that includes fresh fruit and quinoa.

Nobody is sure why this space is so noisy, but it’s always crowded, which might have something to do with it. It’s no wonder from the menu, which is fun, creative, and from what I experienced, delicious. You’ll probably be too busy filling your face to talk anyway.

Williams Sonoma

There are several classy gift shops along this stretch of Granville Street, and this is one of the swanky ones that focuses on the kitchen. It’s huge, and they’ve got everything. Plenty of food items, too, but stuff in jars and cans you often put in a gift basket. This is the kind of place people get registered for weddings and showers and such.

The staff is friendly and knowledgeable. We look a bit scruffy but nobody gives us the side-eye. There were a few nice things inspired by Mexican art that were amazingly beautiful. Great for uncommon stuff like garlic peelers and tea cozies. Lots of souvenir type stuff too, if you’re looking for a new mug or magnet.

Ian Tan Art Gallery

It’s only two rooms, and there aren’t any tours or a gift shop, but if you’re thinking of making an investment in local art this is one of the best places to look. The artists are from Vancouver and some of my personal favorites included local subjects and the city skyline.

The style of art is contemporary, but the subjects can range from still life to abstract. Exhibits include paintings along with sculptures and unique media like glass art.

Fire & Flower Cannabis Co.

A similar design to Muse up the street, with the glass cases and elaborate displays, this store has a more utilitarian feel. It’s located on a busier and less expensive part of Granville, and caters to commuters and tourists as much as neighborhood folks.

This might be why it feels more modern. It’s only a few blocks down from Muse but the vibe is entirely different. Just as friendly, but with less glowing wood and plush seating. There are no places to sit and commiserate or enjoy the atmosphere. Time is marijuana these days.

Sushivan

Combine your cannabis shopping with a bite to eat at Sushivan, which seems to do most of its business during the busy lunch hours with local office workers or folks taking a break between bus transfers. It looks like a small place, but it’s a big kitchen with an equally expansive menu.

You’ve got all the roles and nigiri sushi, as usual, along with bowls of noodles and rice, but there are also a few Korean dishes on the menu like the ramen and soup. I had a side of kimchi every time we came here.

Mazahr Lebanese Kitchen

To be fair, Mazahr Lebanese Kitchen is on West 11th Avenue, just off Granville. This could be some of the best tea I’ve ever had, but that’s often my experience when it comes to Middle Eastern cuisine. The tea is just as good as the food. I had the house tea, Mint with Mazahr, and it was exceptional.

I get falafel because I love chickpeas in all their forms. The atmosphere is busy but also serene, which is a nice combination for a quiet dinner and decent conversation. There’s an outdoor patio but it’s more popular during lunchtime, when it’s still light out.


Honorable Mentions

Shopper’s Drug Mart

A much a Canadian icon as Tim Horton’s or Bombardier, Shopper’s might have started out as a pharmacy but is now a grocery store, department store, and post office. This one has a decent snack section, complete with all the crazy chip flavours I know and love from back in the day. Despite rumors of certain brands going enshittified, so I’m pleasantly surprised that Lay’s Salt & Vinegar still has the same old bite.

Granville Park

There’s a whole city block of green space here if you count the adjacent Lawn Bowling Club and the Vancouver Tennis Club. This part is designed for kids and dogs, with playgrounds for each group, plus a big open field with a couple of picnic tables. The dog park is off-leash and has a variety of seating, greenery, and features to keep Fido busy. It’s a lot of fun to watch the mix of rescue mutt and expensive purebred pets cavort together over wood chips and underneath lush saplings.

Death At The Bus Stop

It’s there at the same time every morning, just like I am. Of course, totally unbothered by the cold.

Dante described a layer of hell as a frozen wasteland, where the cold was used to torture instead of fire. The damned were frozen up to their necks, traitors to trusted friends and allies, and I agreed it was a suitable place for such wretched sinners.

My own sins were unknown to me. But I suppose the damned always say that.

I can’t ever see its face, so I don’t know if there’s really a skull or what underneath that hood. He turns this blank, unmarked void in my direction as I trudge to my assigned place.

“You’re late,” the voice is monotone, tired, but hopeful. Even the deity itself doesn’t know exactly when those yellow lights will shine through this white darkness. It raises a bony hand clutching an hourglass up to my face.

An angry schoolmarm trapped in the body of a mythological menace.

“You’re early,” I reply with my best sneer, but my bravado is hiding a real sense of fear. I pretend I’m not using my side-eye to peek down the street.

Looking for the lights. I couldn’t have missed them. Maybe they’re late, just like me.

The hourglass disappears, and it turns away, droning on. The voice he has today is gruff and fuzzy, like an old man grinding through the channels on a ham radio.

“Same drill as always,” it sounds bored. “Five minutes late, I take two of your fingers. Ten minutes, four more, along with your ears and nose.”

It is bored. So am I. Years of this. But it has to tell me, just the same. Divine protocol or something.

“Twenty, and you never have to go to school again.”

The statement ends with an uneven hiss that might pass for laughter in Hell.

“Burning in hell doesn’t sound so bad at the moment,” I stamp my feet, a combination of a tantrum at the unfairness of it all and the will to keep from dying.

The yellow light is weak, but cuts into the void. Two lights brighten on the street, and two others, red with authority, join them in banishing the creatures of the cold.

There wasn’t so much as a whisper. Death was gone. At least for now.

Better luck tomorrow, I thought, and was not entirely dishonest. It would be better to die, cross the river Styx, and be frozen in a pile of stinking mud than go home and tell my mother I had missed the bus.

I ascend into the school bus, all ten fingers intact.

Measuring Marijuana

We’ve all heard expressions like dime bag, eyeballing it, or pre-rolls, but what does that actually mean? How much is a gram of marijuana? How much is an ounce of weed? Not only how much should I spend, but what does that amount actually look like?

Now that cannabis consumption has become a part of the economic mainstream as a publicly traded commodity, we can stop talking in funny codes and obscure slang words to express amounts and prices. If you can buy weed stocks, you can follow your investment using common weights and measurements.

These are questions that consumers ask about the products they buy and it’s time to provide some answers.

How Much THC? Strong, Medium, and Mild Levels

These days there are so many different types of cannabis available in just as many forms that weight is no longer the deciding factor. THC level or growing method, like organic versus hydrophobic, can also determine the price. Cannabis laws still vary widely between countries and regions, which also affects prices.

An interesting example of how this works is the difference between the price of cannabis grown indoors instead of outdoors. Indoor grows were developed as a response to the need for stealth and secrecy, and take considerably more capital and labour to construct. Therefore a type of cannabis grown indoors is generally priced at a more expensive level than outdoor strains of the same weight.

Growing a crop using hydroponics results in a crop with a higher than average THC level. Strains of marijuana with a higher THC level are more costly than weaker strains. Concentrates are sold in smaller units but are often much stronger than buds or edible products.

Another new factor today is the growing popularity of CBD. When buying for CBD content as opposed to THC levels, prices tend to change. CBD is still a fairly new phenomenon and is almost exclusively placed in the medical marijuana category. It is often specially produced by only a few dedicated growers.   

How Much Cannabis Is That, Anyway?

Marijuana is typically sold according to weight, in either grams or ounces. We’re not sure how the metric units got mixed up with imperial ones, but it might have something to do with the size of a kilogram.

Measurements based on smaller, Imperial standards are more portable. A full kilo, which is 1000 grams or more than two pounds, might work out to a small hay bale. Remember, this is when your smuggling ability was a factor in buying and selling cannabis.  Now that you can buy legal marijuana of course, it’s a different ball game.

Today, weights follow the same tradition. Cannabis sales start in grams and them move into Imperial measurements. You’ve heard this expressions before. Each of them refers to an ounce as the default unit of measurement.

There are several different ways to determine how much a gram is if you’re not comfortable making an estimate and you don’t have a scale. Several free apps are available that can turn your smartphone into a scale so you don’t have to guess anymore.

Check the internet for simple scales you can build at home with little more than a few common pieces of office supplies. Another handy life hack is to keep in mind that a cap from a water or soda bottle typically holds a gram of weed.

Here’s a short glossary of the most common expressions.

  • Gram. The smallest unit of measurement in which cannabis is sold. Think of two small joints or one fairly fat one, and that’s how much a gram of marijuana looks like.
  • 2 grams. Dispensaries that sell cannabis online in Canada and the United States measure in two gram units. Actual weed prices vary from province to province and state to state. 
  • Eighth. Literally an eighth of an ounce, or three and a half grams. This size is very commonly purchased and the media often uses the “eighth” and the gram measurement as a frame of reference.  
  • Quarter.  Seven grams, or a quarter of an ounce. If you cook with your cannabis, you are likely buy in larger sizes like “the quarter”. This is the minimum amount required to start cooking budder and other cannabis-infused recipes.
  • Half. Also referred to as a “half O”, this size is often associated with both cooking and making concentrates.  You’re getting roughly fourteen grams at this bulk-buying stage.
  • Ounce. There are 28 grams in an ounce, which is the same amount required in most budder cooking recipes. If you like making budder or infusing oils and other beverages with cannabis, buying in this size is a good investment.  Oddly enough, we’ve found the question of how many grams in an ounce of weed answered incorrectly all over the internet!  
  • Quarter Pound. 113 grams of marijuana is ideal for a long term supply for conventional smoking accessories. It’s also a good amount for infusing food and beverages and making smaller amounts of concentrates.  You should be getting into serious discount territory at this point in the ball game.
  • Half Pound. You’ll hear this unit referred to as a “half pounder”. 226 grams of cannabis is a healthy supply but be prepared to pay in excess of $1,000. 
  • Pound. 455 grams of cannabis is just as impressive as it sounds. Outside of medical use, making concentrates, or bulk purchases, marijuana is rarely sold in this size.

Times have changed and there’s no longer a need to buy pre-weighed bags from your friendly neighborhood dealer. Virtually all dispensaries will sell by the gram in any unit you choose but this can vary widely depending on your location.

Do I Buy an Ounce or a Gram to Smoke, Eat, or Vape?

Let’s not forget about other pertinent concerns. Everyone has a different method of consumption, and that is a deciding factor in the amount of pot you buy. For example, does a vaporizer consume the same amount of marijuana as a conventional pipe?

The following guides are based on average sizes as opposed to party or fun sizes. Certain guidelines are applicable across a variety of smoking traditions. Evenly ground cannabis burns better and lasts longer than weed that is crumbled by hand.

A gram of a pure Kush strain might be more expensive, but it will get you higher faster than an eighth of more common cannabis flowers. 

Joints and Blunts

A joint is rolled using an average sized paper and is contains about 1 gram of cannabis, or a simple dime bag. A blunt is essentially a cannabis cigar, rolled either using a hollowed out store-bought cigar or a separate casing like a tobacco leaf.

Blunts tend to be at least twice as heavy, containing a minimum of 2 grams of cannabis, but as they are often hand-rolled to an individual’s taste this can vary.

Pipes, Bongs, and Waterpipes 

This covers such an incredible variety of smoking accessories and paraphernalia. Some pipes are built for show while others are meticulously designed to be the best handheld smoking devices in existence.

Standard pipes and bongs are built with a bowl to hold a gram of cannabis, but there are literally thousands of different styles. Water pipes are intended to accommodate several people and have larger than average bowls.

Vaporizers

What was a fairly complicated, expensive, and cumbersome tabletop machine two decades ago now comes in various streamlined versions. You can still buy an old-school, multi-person vaporizer that fits in with your living room like an appliance, or you can invest in a discreet and efficient hand held version.

Advances in vaporizer technology offer you both options and everything in between. If you can afford a vaporizer upfront, this is the ideal method for getting the most from the smallest amount of weed.

Rules of Thumb for determining an Ounce of Marijuana and How Many Grams of Marijuana are Needed

At last, the time has come when marijuana consumers can use conventional weights and measurements. Not only how much should it cost, but how much marijuana do you need, for what and why?

How much is a gram of cannabis? Is it enough to pack the bowl for the night? Just remember our lid of a pop bottle reference.

How much is an ounce of marijuana? Can I make a week’s worth of cannabis budder with that amount?  Depending how much cannabis budder you like to use… probably!

Or – if you’re more creative – would half a pound be enough for Christmas stocking stuffers in eighths and quarters for everyone on my list? Depends how many stockings you are stuffing.  As long as mine is one of them – I’d say go for it!

How to Make Stovetop Cannabutter

It’s easy to learn how to roll a joint or pack a bowl, but how do you make pot infused edibles?

Edibles are still a bit of a mystery even to experienced cannabis users.

Everyone has heard a story about “space cakes” or “hash brownies.” The field is opening up to include candy and sweets, infused oil and pastry. The most renowned and varied recipes for cannabis-infused edibles are for pot cookies.

Why Marijuana Edibles?

Marijuana edibles shouldn’t be confused with hemp products, which are not psychoactive. Hemp is part of the cannabis plant family but is an industrial product used for textiles, food, even building materials.

People choose to consume their cannabis in edible form for a wide variety of reasons. Edibles present a healthier alternative to smoking, and they have a different effect than other types of consumption.

Now that we can buy legally, it’s easier to do research and use exact measurements – of both product and the THC level, when it comes to cooking with cannabis. How strong was the marijuana, and how much of it had been used? You can also determine the dosage from the strength of the “cannabutter” that was used in the ingredients.

DIY Pot Cookies

There are several reasons that consumers of marijuana edibles would choose pot cookies. The “baked goods” category of marijuana treats contains some of the easiest and dependable recipes for fun snacks and deserts we all recognize.

  • There’s plenty of variety for anyone who gets bored with one type of cookie or has specific dietary needs that are difficult to buy or find commercially.
  • For cooks or bakers, it’s a fun and easy way to infuse cannabis into your career or hobby.
  • Cookie recipes are simple, with ingredients that are easy to find and mistakes that are easy to cover up or correct. 
  • Marijuana treats in cookie form are commonly one dose per cookie. The phrase, “take half and see how you feel” is usually associated with pot cookie consumption. 

Pot Cookies and “Cannabutter”

“Budder” or “cannabutter” are the nicknames you’ll hear associated with the product that comes from infusing butter with marijuana. This is the classic combination of butter and cannabis.

The marijuana concentrate that started the modern “dabs” trend was also given the name “budder” but the two are nothing alike and shouldn’t be used interchangeably. That “budder” that you see on the menu at your local “Compassion Club” isn’t the same thing you use to make pot cookies.

If you’re going to learn how to make pot cookies, it is essential that you get to know this indispensable ingredient. Budder is easy to make. It can be made from the leaves and stem of the plant but is much more potent if the flowers are used. It’s also the base ingredient for several other marijuana treats.

Cooking with budder has several advantages. Those who regularly bake or cook with cannabis often use cannabutter for the sake of convenience. You can substitute it for regular butter in virtually any recipe.

Any oil or lipid can be infused with cannabis if you use the right technique.  Butter is one of the most common household lipids. Not everyone has a bottle of olive or coconut oil on their shelf, but you can find all the butter you need at corner store.

The Art of Decarboxylation

Also shortened to “decarbing” The process is fairly straightforward. Butter is melted, infused with some cannabis, then cooled into a solid state to be used later.

The stovetop method requires more vigilance than the more popular oven method. Beginners should cook with strains of less than 10% THC, not only so they waste less valuable bud if they make mistakes but because novices often misjudge potency and dosage. Understanding what sort of sativa strains or indica strains you’re dealing with is also key.

Every recipe for cannabutter is exactly the same and requires only two ingredients, unsalted or salted butter (this depends entirely on preference) and dried, ground cannabis flowers. Vegans can use alternatives such as margarine or coconut oil and get the same result.

Melt the butter in a saucepan once it simmers, add the portion of cannabis. The ratio of one cup butter, to half a cup of cannabis is the general rule of thumb, and the mixture needs to be stirred at least every ten minutes on a medium-to-low heat. It’s a fairly labor-intensive activity that requires your strict attention. (Note: try not to sample the base product before making pot cookies.)

When it’s ready depends on how much you’re making. You need patience, as the process takes at least 40 minutes in most cases. A good guideline is to wait until the budder turns a dense, waxy, green color. The mixture needs to be strained of plant matter before being used, but at that point you can use it in melted form or put it in a mold and return it to the fridge for later.

If you want stronger, more concentrated budder, use more cannabis and less butter. For a less potent mixture, use more butter and less marijuana. Strength varies depending on the strain of cannabis you use, too.  

What Kind of Pot Cookies Should You Make?

The crowd pleasers like sugar cookies, chocolate chip, peanut butter all require regular butter that you can substitute with cannabutter.

There are some rare entries or more complex cookie recipes for more ambitious bakers if you want to push the limits when it comes to marijuana cuisine. Make infused oils or drinks, or learn how to cook with cannabis extracts like hash.

This niche category of the vast and delicious universe of baked goods has a myriad of variations. Even if you’re not into edibles, it’s good to know how to make pot cookies and their base component, cannabutter.

Great with coffee, a healthy snack or with colorful icing, there’s a pot cookie out there for everyone. Once you know how to make the secret ingredient, cannabutter, you can make virtually any kind you want.

People have been making marijuana treats for as long as they have smoked and grown the kind herb. Recipes and ideas for infusing food with cannabis are ancient and still used throughout the world. That includes the colorful and varied world of pot cookies.

Chapter 8 – The True Fate of Trip Tucker


It took a few weeks for the temple to be repaired. Until the new living spaces were prepared, including the Mother Superior’s renovated apartments, T’Nedara stayed with T’Pol in Shi’Kahr.  

Other than preparing for the site’s reconsecration, which included composing new rituals, restocking the temple supplies and reorganizing the altered floor plan, she spent most of her time learning English and trading stories of Selek with T’Pol.

“Your interest in Terran vernacular is timely,” the sub-Commander remarked. “Were you inspired by Selek?”

“I was,” She replied. “He showed me a mover…”

“I believe it’s called a movie.”

“Oh. Yes, and it was in English. With Vulcan subtitles for my benefit, naturally. It was interesting to me how the setting was a character of its own. New York City is an important place in Terran history, isn’t it?”

“It is immensely important. The greatest human city of the 20th century. What was the movie called?”

“This eludes me for the moment,” T’Nedara furrowed her brow as she spoke. “Something onomatopoeic and only tangentially related to the subject matter. I asked for a story about human mythology and was surprised it was set in a modern era.”

“Human are as creative as they are superstitious.” T’Pol even smiled a bit. “I always enjoyed horror movies.”

“I’m not sure about the whole idea of making a person scared on purpose,” T’Nedara tried not to sound too critical. “I was surprised to find out such a genre existed.”

“The human mind likes opposites, the same way that Vulcans do. They like their drama and horror as much as their romance and comedy. But this was not horror, obviously.”

“Oh, no, it was a romance. A sea creature fell in love with a human. It was also funny, though. I must admit, a few lines brought my laughter to the surface.”

“I think I know the one you mean. It’s a retelling of an old story, ‘The Little Mermaid’ but with a happier ending.”

“It’s still a bittersweet one. I must extend some empathy to the brother of the protagonist. He would have been incarcerated for the rest of his life.”

The conversation moved to the concept of literary adaptation, another persistent human obsession.

“I saw a book in Selek’s room,” T’Nedara said, “with a notorious history in this regard. I’ve seen excerpts in Vulcan, but I would very much like to read the original.”

“A Terran vision of a desert planet, created in the years before first contact, is indeed fascinating.” T’Pol replied. “There was a time when humans had reason to believe they were alone in the universe and did not yet understand warp technology.”

“The chant they use, the mantra against fear – it’s something Surak would have composed and taught. I can’t ignore such an obvious parallel.” T’Nedara couldn’t hide her interest in the book. “And the spice! Of course, our redspice doesn’t come from giant worms and isn’t a hallucinogen. But I can see the ancient Vulcan ways, in the way they preserved water and fought with ruthless, amoral energy.”

“Humans and Vulcans might not be so different when it comes to their tumultuous history.” T’Pol paused, and seemed to compose herself before continuing. “The discovery of the warp drive and First Contact brought them out of a difficult time. But they entered another one just as quickly.

“We protected them for as long as we could. They were adventurous and brave, but foolish. I watched the crew of the Enterprise learn the reality of life in space. I watched their optimism fade, sometimes even twist and change into bitterness.”

“Is that what happened to Trip?” T’Nedara asked.

T’Pol was surprised by the directness of the question. Other Vulcans were often reluctant to ask about her human crewmates, especially Trip.       

“The official records claim he died on the Enterprise,” T’Pol began, “but you, of all people, deserve to know the truth.”

That was how T’Nedara became the first person to hear the whole story of what really happened to Charles Tucker III, the Chief Engineer of the Enterprise.

“According to all of the official accounts, Charles Tucker the III died in an accident on the Enterprise in the year 2161. There were two other important events that happened in the same year; the formation of the United Federation of Planets and the formation of an organization called Section 31 in response to that.

“Section 31” gets its name from Article 14, Section 31 if the Starfleet Charter. It states that any extraordinary measures – even those that include murder, theft, and sabotage – could be undertaken if the Federation or United Earth was under an existential threat.

When Trip first left Earth to explore space, he was hopeful, optimistic, and dedicated to his friend Jonathan Archer and his dream. Perhaps he was too optimistic. Maybe we can credit him for giving everyone in the galaxy the impression that humans were friendly, enthusiastic, and painfully naive.

The Xindi attack changed him. His sister, Elizabeth, was one of millions that were killed.  The human capacity for joy has its mirror image in their rage. Tripp’s anger went beyond a simple longing for revenge, and his energy and knowledge turned away from flirting, exploring, and making friends.

The accident did happen, and the circumstances that were reported regarding the Andorian General Shran and Captain Archer are factual. However, Trip didn’t die as a result. His body disappeared from the hospital and the morgue. When they gave me his personal effects, I asked who had identified him, and I was told his parents had claimed his body based on biometric information sent from Earth.

I was charged with delivering his belongings to his family. When I met them, they said that they had been told his body had been damaged by radiation, and could not be safely returned. He had been safely disposed of in space after being identified by Jonathan Archer. I kept my silence about the discrepancies in each story, including the fact that Trip’s burns, although serious, were not due to radiation.

I returned to Vulcan. After a few months of silence, mysterious notes started to appear in my personal logs. Only a masterful engineer and very clever programmer could get through those Vulcan security protocols. I traded a few notes with an anonymous user who eventually revealed himself as Trip, not by using his name, but with references to deeply personal events shared by only the two of us.

I still didn’t believe it was him until he actually appeared in my house. Literally, using a transporter, technology that’s barely functional outside of the Vulcan High Command.

You may have guessed that I was pleased to see him, and wasn’t bothered with a lot of questions at first. He still retains the scars of the accident, and refused to tell me everything at the time, but confirmed that his death was a fabricated event to extract him from the Enterprise. His determination to seek out and destroy anything even remotely connected with the Xindi put him on the radar as a valuable ally for those who would pursue the path of the extremist.

It’s not clear when it started, or if he was one of the founding members or just a recruit, but he didn’t call it Section 31 at the time. Not everyone liked the idea of a galactic federation based on universal justice. It’s logical to include espionage as part of any government system, but it’s crucial to keep it clandestine, and Tripp was risking his secrets to come out of hiding to be with me.

The pregnancy was a surprise, as you may have guessed. Elizabeth, Selek’s older sister, was created through artificial means and it was thought that a Terran-Vulcan hybrid was an impossibility. We considered termination, not only for out fear of exposing Tripp but due to the possibility of physical damage to myself. However, my condition advanced normally, following the Vulcan gestation period, and Koss agreed to step in and fill the role of ‘father’ on all of the relevant government forms.

Trip Tucker remains a member of the secretive organization that is now known throughout the universe as Section 31, a rogue splinter group associated with terrorism, espionage, and extortion. Tripp hasn’t always approved of their methods, which have only become more extreme, and these days he is more a hostage than an equal member. They need his engineering knowledge, and they threaten him, and his loved ones, to get it.

I was never worried about dealing with them. You have seen me handle a plasma rifle. But I did have some maternal concern for my son, who would be in danger if his true ancestry were discovered, and by keeping this secret I have kept him safe from his father’s colleagues.”

“The secret may have been discovered by the cult,” T’Nedara said. “They have my biometrics.”

“But not the skill to read them, not the finer details. We will find and destroy any information they have. While you rebuild and study, I will conduct a thorough investigation.”

She paused, and seemed to focus on a place far in the distance.

“They will be found. And punished.”

“Please consider all of the resources of the Temple at your disposal,” T’Nedara had to breath deeply to hide her visceral emotional reaction. But she couldn’t hide the raised volume of her voice or the green flush in her cheeks.

They conversed no more that night, but there was an unspoken understanding between them regarding the fate of the cult.

T’Pol quietly utilized some questionable search methods only available to a sub-Commander, taking liberties with the rules that ensured the safety and privacy of Vulcan civilians.

T’Nedara, meanwhile, had successfully discovered the ancient texts of the Kolinahru, and studied the forbidden psionic powers in secret.

Denied love, they would indulge their rage instead. It was a bold but risky path, especially for Vulcans.

T'Nedara's rough sketches and notes

Chapter 7 – The Ritual Of Light That Opens The Darkened Way


These are the words of Surak.

Nothing is born, nothing dies,

nothing is pure, nothing is stained,

nothing increases and nothing decreases.

The procession wound it’s way down into the warm darkness of subterranean Vulcan. The candles sputtered to life as the Mother Superior stepped past them, her steps were slow and deliberate.

These are the words of Surak.

There is no feeling, no thought, no will, no consciousness.

There are no eyes, no ears, no nose, no tongue, no body, no mind.

There is nothing seen, nor heard, nor smelled, nor tasted, nor touched, nor imagined.

T’Nedara could feel herself sinking into the earth and rock, but it was a gentle sensation, as if she was returning home, and home was a safe place.

These are the words of Surak.

There is no old age and death, and no end to old age and death.

There is no suffering, no cause of suffering, no end to suffering, no path to follow.

There is no attainment of wisdom, and no wisdom to attain.

The procession came to its final destination, the resting place of T’Ulla, the former Mother Superior.

These are the words of Surak.

This is truth that cannot be doubted.

Gone, gone, gone over, gone fully over.

And then awakened!

These are the words of Surak.[24]

T’Nedara reached forward and touched the stone that would hold the katra of the former Mother Superior for all eternity.

            Farewell, mentor and mother, she said in her mind, I am blessed by your guidance. Rest well, and know your memory lives on.

There was a reply.

Your gratitude is my reward. I thank you for a sublime and profound ritual. Before I depart and take my rest, I will say one thing more.

I speak his name, but his voice does not answer.

Take comfort. He is not among us.

Live long, and prosper.

T’Nedara reached out with her psionic powers and lit one extra candle, a lone one placed by the broken kitchen door.


[24] Taken from and inspired by the Heart Sutra.

Chapter 4 – The Cult Of Maripol


T’Nedara had plenty to keep her busy so there was little time to fret over an absent mate even if she had been so inclined. She wasn’t the kind of person to brood, and she had serious and urgent responsibilities in the temple.

Most of the planned renovations were taking place on the lower levels. Naturally, the hospital and infirmary were the top priority, and the old living quarters were left alone for the time being, which included the space set aside for her and Selek.

Like the Mother Superior, T’Nedara recognized that the future of the temple might be uncertain, but as a hospital and maybe even a school dedicated to the science of Biometrics, they might stay here and have a future.

Or the old place would degenerate into a museum, filled with the same dust and silence of the catacombs deep below. It could be worse. T’Nedara shuddered to think of it bulldozed completely and replaced by rows of cubicles.[14]  

The Mother Superior shared her concerns, and the two of them spent the next two days making further renovation plans. The Infirmary was to be expanded into a hospital, with the Biometrics section being the prominent feature of a much larger facility. A whole floor was set aside for the library and other various records that were currently scattered throughout the temple.

“I may be the last to be interred in the Catacombs,” the Mother Superior sighed into a cup of tea one night. “You must be the one to seal them when the time comes.”

“Mother, I will be the last,” T’Nedara said. “There is no other home for me than here, with you, and the words of Surak.”

T’Nedara carefully pulled a few extra leaves from the basil. It was a thick, hearty plant, and could stand the stress of losing a few extra leaves. Something about the heavy, oily taste calmed her, answering a mysterious craving.

Perhaps not so mysterious, she thought, staring through the window into the falling light. If she did the test herself tonight, she would know everything by morning.

T’Krella was just leaving the Infirmary when T’Nedara arrived. The young novice was preparing to graduate to an officiate, and had moved into the regular Dormitories.

“Greetings, Reldai,” she used the formal address for a ranking cleric of the temple and bowed her head.

“T’hy’la[15],” T’Nedara touched her friend’s shoulder. “Please, the formality isn’t required. We are both off duty, and you’re getting older now. Enjoy your rest, I’ll see you tomorrow.”

The novice picked up her basket and turned to go, but hesitated when she saw her friend open a cupboard and remove some vials and cups.

“Neddy,” she said quietly, “what are you doing?”

“I’m administering a pregnancy test,” she said, her voice flat. “I’ve been noticing some dietary anomalies.”

It had only been a few weeks since the now infamous Kal If Fee, but Vulcan females don’t have a menstrual cycle the same way as humans even if the gestation period is roughly the same.

T’Krella quietly stepped to her friend’s side as she took a sample of blood from her fingertip and placed it on a glass slide. They both watched the screen as the computer completed the scan. The green flashed a dark green, a positive result.

“Well, you’ll be an aunt, my little Rella,” said T’Nedara, and she could sense her friend smiling behind her.

The green light flashed, indicating the computer was compiling all of the finer details. T’Nedara saw it lengthen and bend, and felt the floor move underneath her tip and spin.

She blinked and found herself kneeling on the floor. A few leaves of basil had fallen out of her front pocket. T’Krella was crouched next to her, holding her arm.

“I’m glad I was here,” she said, as they slowly rose. “You might have hit the floor otherwise.”

There was a moment of silence between them. T’Krella saw the leaves and picked them up.

“The changes in diet you mentioned?”

T’Nedara nodded and leaned on the counter.

“This is a plant from Earth, isn’t it?”

“Yes, a gift from the former Sub-Commander.”

There was another profound silence between them, one of understanding.

“No wonder you suspected.” T’Krella let her stoic mask slip for a moment and whispered, ”He’ll be so happy…I mean, I’m sure your mate will be gratified when he returns.”

T’Nedara wanted to say something logical and crisp, something with a neutral tone or a harsh and biting fact. But it felt like there was no air in her throat, and nothing but a lonely emptiness waiting for her upstairs.

She could only exhale sadly, and lean for support on T’Krella.

“Come with me to the Dormitory,” T’Krella said, holding her gently. “The computer can do its work alone. We’ll check on the rest tomorrow.”

T’Nedara could have slept in the empty tower, but she was grateful to take a spare bed near her friend. T’Krella insisted, “A precaution, should you feel dizzy again.”

The dreams of T’Nedara were filled with strange and mysterious symbols. She saw Selek, laying in what looked like a garden, with a thin beam of white light emanating in a long, bent line from his shoulder to his thigh. His body floated through space, the stars were buzzing around his head. They were like clusters of white flowers in a dark green sky, humming like insects.

The vision cracked, and T’Nedara woke to a loud BOOM.

Someone was screaming. The wall next to her shuddered. The air filled with dust and gravel.

T’Krella’s bed was empty and rapidly filling up with debris falling from the ceiling. Others were running for the exits, and T’Krella ran towards the one that would lead her to the Mother Superior’s quarters.

Her first instinct was either an earthquake or volcanic eruption. The temple was built around an active lava bed, and had been known for frequent tremors, but nothing before like this. The temple already had an evacuation plan and the residents were following as best they could.

Some were trapped under rubble or buried under piles of jagged rocks and gravel. Monks and soldiers alike struggled to free their stricken friends. She stopped to help move the rocks, aware that she was speaking but barely aware of her own words.

Put pressure on it. Follow the evacuation protocol. Exit through the infirmary.

T’Nedara tried to ignore the streaks of lurid green across the floor as she stumbled towards the residences in the upper levels. Another shock made the floor beneath her vibrate, but she managed to reach the two high doors that led into the Mother Superior’s apartments.

They were broken, hanging askew in the archway like broken bones, T’Nedara could only peer inside while she struggled to pry the door open.

The foyer was filled with rubble and what looked like curtains, and she could hear someone speaking. It was the Mother Superior’s voice, harsh but muffled.

T’Nedara managed to open the door enough to squeeze through, and fell on her knees next to the rubble.

They were not curtains. They were clothing, soaked in warm blood, and it only took a moment for T’Nedara to recognize the mangled body.

The Mother Superior was in a troubled sleep when she was roused by a rough hand and a phaser thrust into her face. She heard a voice.

“She’s not upstairs. We have to find her before the charges…”

“Quiet. The old woman will know.”

“Where’s T’Nedara?”

She blinked, confused. But her eyes cleared, and she recognized the twisted symbols of the Cult of Maripol adorning their clothing. They had become notorious terrorists in recent years, fighting a system that no longer had any use for them or their wretched blood god. 

This did not explain why they were looking for T’Nedara.

“What do you want with T’Nedara?” She snapped back.

“Hurry up, you old fool, otherwise we’re all…”

The loud boom shook the walls, and the rock in the ceiling collapsed, covering the bed in rubble. Some of the dust cleared, and the cultists dug into the wreckage to drag the Mother Superior, now gravely injured, into a safer part of the room.

All the while they were yelling about the charges. A signal was badly timed, a fuse had blown, a mistake had been made. There was a second charge in the upper spire that was intended to cover their escape, and her disappearance.

A door swung open in the next room. Someone yelled, but their voice was drawn out by a second explosion, and the rubble that fell silenced them forever.   

“Where?”

The urgency of the voice behind the phaser was palpable. The Mother Superior knew that if she could stall them, even for only a few minutes, no threat could force her to speak ever again.

“Your dead god has no place…in our house,” She sputtered and tasted blood. “The words of Surak…”

A scream of horror broke the unearthly calm of the Mother Superior’s words. Another person had entered the foyer and what they saw elicited a reaction of horror and grief.

            The cultists forgot the stricken temple matron and rushed into the next room. It was filled with piles of jagged rock and broken furniture. A woman was bent next to a pile of ruined stone and dusty ash, digging through it with bare hands, yelling something.

NO PLEASE GODS NO

She was screaming and crying at the same time, her tears mixed with blood and dust.

            T’RELLA PLEASE PLEASE NO

            She dragged the remains from the twisted pile. Red cloth and white stone mixed with green viscera and black soot. Gore soaked her clothing, and she remained oblivious to the cultists, holding T’Krella’s dead body close as her robe was soaked in blood.

“Mirran[16],” one of them hissed, “what if we killed her?”

“Only one way to find out. Where’s the one you call T’Nedara?”

 The sound of her name roused her, but only enough to look at them with shock and horror.

The walls heaved and cracked. Voices started yelling outside and they were growing closer. The sounds prompted the cultists to work quickly.

“You’ll die here, either way. Hurry up, where is she?”

T’Nedara took a breath and felt her resolve come back. She fumed at how helpless she felt, until her eyes carefully settled on the staff leaning against a broken desk.

Only a few meters away, and in her hands it could become a deadly weapon.

The cultist with the phaser stepped forward and opened his mouth to speak again, but he was silenced forever when a precise volley of phaser fire blew his jaw apart.

His friends met a similar fate as they tried to run. Three precise shots was all it required, and not a single atom of precious energy had been wasted. Even in the midst of her emotional torment, T’Nedara concluded its user knew this weapon surgical precision.

A shadow of a phaser rifle appeared on the wall, a weapon that was not found within the monastery, followed by the shooter appearing through the shadows and dust. They were wearing a pair of goggles, which they removed upon seeing the stricken Vulcan crouched on the ground.

T’Nedara had not seen her before, and they had never met, but she knew who it was immediately.

“Sub Commander T’Pol,” she said, as formally as possible.

“T’Nedara,” T’Pol answered curtly, “the structural integrity of the building has been compromised. I will escort you to…”

A moan from the next room distracted both of them. T’Pol ran to its source, while T’Nedara gently placed her friend’s body on the ground and covered her face.

The Mother Superior was still alive, but had lost the power to speak. T’Pol tried to lift her, and she angrily resisted.

She clutched T’Pol’s hand and pointed to T’Nedara. The monk stepped forward and pressed her fingers to the Mother Superior’s temple. Their eyes locked for a moment.

Her last breath gurgled out of her throat and she slumped to the broken floor.

T’Nedara felt her own breath leave her body, and her chest was heavy with loss, too heavy to cry any more this time.

“Come, and quickly,” T’Pol hastened out of the shattered room with T’Nedara close by her side.

The entire compound had to be evacuated, and over the course of the next few hours a whole army of structural engineers and forensic scientists descended upon the temple. Temporary field hospitals and tents for forensics and dig teams dotted the normally peaceful mountainside.  

The remains were still being recovered as the mountains started to cut into the sunlight. Survivors were allocated to hospitals and alternative housing for the time being, although one important exception was made regarding the future Mother Superior. T’Nedara left her bloody robes with the forensics team and changed into a plain, unmarked one before she joined Sub Commander T’Pol on a shuttlecraft. She knew nothing more about her undisclosed location.

Perhaps it was because of this hive of emotion and chaos that the katra of the Mother Superior remained silent. T’Nedara felt the weight of her somber gaze, watching the aftermath of the attack from behind her own eyes.

The attack had taken place in the early hours, just before the dawn. After a whole day of recovering the dead, first aid, and emergency transportation, the stars were starting to wink in the sky when T’Pol quietly boarded her personal shuttlecraft with T’Nedara.

T’Pol had a personal home in a suburb of Shi’Khar. It covertly had a shuttlecraft landing pad and a transporter, along with the extra security afforded to all Vulcan officers. Her son’s mate would be safe here, while the temple was assessed to be either rebuilt or demolished.

As it is with Vulcans, the tour of the small house was painfully businesslike. The host didn’t change her neutral tone didn’t change until T’Pol showed her the spare bedroom.

“You’ll be sleeping here,” T’Pol said. “This used to be Selek’s room.”

A few books and trinkets lined the shelves. It was plain, with few colors or decorations, typical of a Vulcan male.

T’Nedara pressed her hands against her abdomen and nodded.

“I must take further steps to secure this domicile. Please take some rest. We will speak at length tomorrow.”

“My deepest gratitude, sub-Commander,” T’Nedara managed to whisper. Then she was left alone, surrounded by the memories of her absent mate.

  The closet still contained a few sleeping robes. They were too big, but that didn’t matter, and before lying down in bed she looked at the bookshelf.

Closer inspection revealed some of Selek’s closest secrets. Some were books in Vulcan, but she also saw a few titles in English, a Terran language of which she knew very little. The history of medicine and philosophy had compelled her to study Classical Chinese and Sanskrit instead.

There was one she could read. The spine had the letters in capitals – DUNE. She took hold of the spine and pulled it away.

Something glimmered in the depths of the shelf. She reached behind the books and found a small globe filled with water. It contained a scene made out of clay or plastic, depicting a seashore. A tree that looked like a long, curved pipe with foliage exploding from the very top leaned over the surf. When the globe moved, the sky inside filled with a flock of tiny seagulls that would swoop around a sailboat on the horizon.

There was a sign on the beach white with black letters that made them easier to read. It was in English, and although she could make out the letters, she wasn’t sure what they meant.

Clearwater, FL.

She sighed and placed both the globe and book on the bedside table. A numbness gripped her as she reclined. She could still hear the explosions and screams, but couldn’t react to them. Her body was squeezed out of breath under a weight of darkness and death.

T’Nedara had never carried a katra before. She had heard that sometimes they would invade their waking minds with disturbing visions, but for the whole day she hadn’t even heard a whisper from the Mother Superior.

She had been busy, distracted, and unfocused, cracked and torn inside like the interior of the temple. Now she remembered the tight grip on her hand and the light going out of her Mother’s eyes.

The memory faded into a peaceful orange light and took T’Nedara with it. She followed the fading lamp into a troubled sleep, and dreamed she was sitting cross-legged before a smoldering urn of incense.

Rich smoke rose from the cauldron and the room was filled with the sweet aroma.

 Another monk was sitting next to her. A young woman who looked vaguely familiar. She spoke without turning her head.

 “Be not troubled,” she said gently. Her voice rose over the disembodied chanting that seemed to radiate from the heavy smoke. “I have faith you will honor my memory, and continue our sacred traditions. I rest easy in your care.

My daughter. May you live long and prosper.”

“T’Ulla,” T’Nedara recognized the Mother Superior and called her by her name. “I will do all that I can. You will not be forgotten.”

The Mother Superior rose, and she was wearing a long robe with wide sleeves that seemed to be made of gold and fire. Rays of light were broken by the thick smoke, and T’Nedara’s eyes stang.

She blinked, and it was morning.


[14] The nickname Vulcans gave to the inexpensive living quarters that were produced in large numbers and often used to house the sick, indigent, or other disenfranchised groups like refugees.

[15] “Life friend”, a term used for close friends and siblings.

[16] A Vulcan curse similar to “damn” or “hell.”

Chapter 6 – The New Temple


The shuttlecraft rose from the covert landing pad in the open green space behind the house. T’Nedara was busy organizing the next few hours on her tablet, but she didn’t fail to notice the second shuttlecraft that had quietly come up on their port side. It was dark red and was clearly marked with the brand of the planet’s highest authority.

            “The Vulcan High Command has provided me with a private security detail,” T’Pol explained, without turning away from the controls. “They are aware of your presence, and you are also under their protection.”

            “I’m grateful, T’Pol,” It had taken all morning, but T’Nedara had grown accustomed to calling Selek’s mother by her first name instead of using a formal title.

            “It’s not a gift or a favor. My commanding officers have a vested interest in seeing the temple restored, or at least the records and research preserved.” She continued, “I’m sure they’ll send a representative once the integrity of the site has been determined.”

            An authority on architecture and restoration was already there. Koss was waiting for them on the landing platform.

Koss worked independently, and had taken it upon himself to check the site out of his own personal interest. He had been in contact with T’Pol, who had arranged his access on behalf of the Vulcan High Command. With the help of his younger son Savvik, who was following in his footsteps, he had already taken detailed survey notes and was ready to present them to the Mother Superior.

The shuttlecraft landing was flawless, and Koss took note of a second craft just behind it, hovering a few meters above them, before it drifted towards the stricken temple at surveillance speed. There were other ships and drones doing the same, taking pictures and measurements throughout the site. Cameras and lasers flashed over the cracked rocks and torn masonry.

T’Pol quickly stepped through the door and down the stairs. T’Nedara took a moment to straighten her robes. It occurred to her that she was without her veil or bracers, but she expected most of her colleagues would also be missing their formal wear and now was not to time to fuss over such details. From that moment on, she focused on her work.

“T’Nedara,” Koss addressed her immediately, bowing his head. “I am honored to meet you, despite the dire circumstances. My son and I are at your service.”

The young man at his side also bowed his head, but remained silent.

“Koss has assembled a recovery team.” T’Pol began a debriefing as they walked towards the main entrance, which was undamaged. “We’ve converted the main floor into a meeting hall for now.”

The construction workers and technicians wandering through the main grounds were strangers to T’Nedara. They were busy with their work and mostly ignored them unless Koss spoke to them directly.  

The three of them reached the main floor of the temple and T’Nedara finally recognized the faces of her colleagues and friends. They were in a mix of casual robes and civilian clothing; a motely group compared to their usual perfect order. This was usually a place of deep and abiding quiet, so peaceful that you could hear the incense burning. Now it was cluttered with wires, tables, and viewing screens of various sizes.

     One of her colleagues, a monk named Muran, rushed over to her with little pretense of Vulcan stoicism.

“T’Nedara,” his voice was steady but his eyes were red and puffy. He took her hands in his, as much for his comfort as hers. “We found her, the Mother Superior…”

“I know, Muran, I was there. I am the keeper of her katra. She will be interred in the catacombs as was her will. We will honor her life and continue to honor Surak according to her will.”

Muran’s eyes fell. He took a step back and withdrew his hands to make the sacred symbol of the temple before his bowed forehead.

“Mother Superior,” he said, and it was the first time she had been addressed formally with the title. A few other survivors had gathered and made the same gesture.

“Mother Superior,” their voices formed a chorus. For a moment the sacred chant seemed to wipe clean the profane. Koss and T’Pol stood back quietly, watching and listening to the sacred circle in fascination.

“Until the temple is rebuild and consecrated, I am only the acting Mother Superior.” She spoke quietly but her voice carried. “The ancient laws must be obeyed and the ancient rites satisfied. It will all be done, in the name of T’Ulla and the word of Surak.

“Our first order of business is to inter the katra of the Mother Superior, according to her will.”

The circle nodded in agreement. The worst damage was upstairs, leaving the catacombs beneath the kitchens intact and untouched. This wasn’t just a way of signifying T’Nedara’s ascension as Mother Superior, but also to clear her mind of another’s katra.

It was important that T’Ulla could be put to rest. The repose of her soul would be a symbolic gesture that would unite and rally the survivors.

It would also be a useful way to clean up the ruins and remains, starting from the ground up. The ritual was based on a traditional funeral procession that would begin on the outdoor space designated for the cremation pyres, then continue to the temple space on the main floor, and then finally to follow the long spiral staircase down into the catacombs.

T’Nedara instructed her fellow monks, along with several of the soldiers, to help clean and consecrate the main floor. She then approached Koss and T’Pol to explain, who were standing nearby.

They were looking with some concern at a small tablet T’Pol was holding in her hand. Their eyes rolled heavily toward T’Nedara as she approached, and she felt the weight of their gaze like a heavy rock sliding down the mountain.

“We have received word from the Vulcan High Command,” Koss said, and his voice sounded heavy. He looked at T’Pol, almost as if you ask for help, but her eyes were fixed on T’Nedara.

The monks and soldiers that has been left behind in the temple and survived it’s near destruction pretended not to listen as they cleared the dust and rubble off the floor, propped up the idols, and relit the candles and incense.

“The Kir’Shara has been destroyed,” T’Pol’s spoke with a flat, dull voice that sounded bored. “There is no sign of the crew. A ship has been dispatched to investigate the crash site.”

The last few digital words of Selek, which she had read from the doomed ship only hours ago, flashed across her mind. Had she read a message from the beyond? And did she have the strength to reach into space and save his katra as well?

The cold of the stone floor seemed to open up and swallow her. She felt the warmth of a hand on her shoulder, and a blurry light came back to her eyes.

T’Pol guided the Mother Superior to a sheltered alcove with a wooden bench and sat down next to her.

“I’ll get busy clearing the stairway,” Koss cleared his throat before he spoke and made his way towards the lower dais. The other monks looked at him with raised eyebrows.

“The Mother Superior isn’t…weeping, is she?” One dared to say it out loud.

“Certainly not,” Koss snapped back. “I’m shocked at the presumption of a mere novice. The air here is warm. Even a hardened Vulcan will perspire in these conditions. Get to work!”

He chased them down to the lower stairs, barking orders.

T’Nedara and T’Pol sat close together in the quiet shade of the alcove.

“Only the ship’s debris has been found,” T’Pol said, her voice not so bored anymore, but now hesitant, as if she didn’t know what to say. It wasn’t something that happened to T’Pol often.

     “The crew is still missing.”

T’Nedara said nothing. She could only bow her head to hide her tears.

“There have been many times when we thought colleagues were lost or dead,” She continued. “But they were caught up in a mystery that we had yet to discover and understand.”

T’Nedara raised her head. Her eyes and cheeks were shining but her face was hopeful.

“Ashayam ko-fu,”[21] T’Pol continued, “Please don’t despair. Space is a strange place and there is much we don’t understand. Selek might still return to us. But now, we have a temple to rebuild, and you have a ritual to lead.”

            The Vulcan method of burial under normal circumstances is cremation. A deceased individual would have their own pyre, and their katra and ashes would be interred in a deep, natural cave that also held the last resting places of their peers, colleagues, family, and ancestors. The temple housed some of the oldest catacombs on the planet, with katra stones that were thousands of years old, much older than the word of Surak, even as old as legends of the ancient gods.

            Given the circumstances, T’Nedara had to make some adjustments to each stage of the burial rites and the cremation ritual.

Some of the finer details could remain the same. The treated candles[22] should line the stairs one quarter cusac[23] apart. The wicks are treated with a flammable liquid to make them easier to light with basic psionic powers. It’s a fundamental ability that all Tinsha monks study and perfect, but only a psionic master can start a fire from only a dry wick.   

            There was an advantage to the reconstruction and the burials in that she was distracted from her grief. She took notes between directing her fellow monks regarding her preparations and speaking with the soldiers about security and repairs. The noise of hammers, drills, and saws filled the air but couldn’t permeate the peaceful space in her head. She was not alone. The katra of T’Ulla stayed close to her, more a light than a shadow, and guided her hand.

            The upper launchpad, where T’Nedara had stood and watched Selek’s shuttlecraft lift into space, had been cleared. This would be the site of the immolation pyres, where the bodies of the deceased would be reduced to ash, then mixed with water and the crushed leaves of a plant in the kitchen. It turned the mix into a dark green ink. The new Mother Superior and her fellow monks would use it to paint their bodies with the words of the Ritual of the Light.

It was then the chant would begin. It would follow them as they marched down the stairs and into the depths of the temple, deep into the catacombs, where the memorial stones were so thick and old they were like cobblestones on a long, wide street. Then they would don the simple mourning robes, simple grey with no adornments, and inter the souls of their fallen friends.

            The clean-up and construction was halted for the ritual. Koss and T’Pol instructed their workers to observe, stand away, and keep their silence.

            The sun fell, the flames rose, and the ritual began.


[21] Beloved daughter.

[23] A unit of measurement equal to a meter.

Chapter 5 – The Final Flight Of The Kir’Shara


Selek, his chosen guard, and the starship crew boarded a Suurok-class ship in orbit for a final briefing. It would take them to the edge of the star system, where they would be transferred to a smaller D’Vahl type, the Kir’Shara, which was a survey vessel as opposed to a fighting ship. The Vulcan High Command had determined speed was a better option than fighting prowess.

The constant hum of the engines was like a white noise that helped him put the emotional part of his brain to sleep. It wasn’t only the stress of being separated from T’Nedara but the life he was trying to build for himself on Vulcan. He kept telling himself that the mission was a logical step towards that goal. There was some comfort in that, and even some reluctant excitement for what awaited him.

The mission was planned to be simple. Travel covertly to Romulus and use the scant information they had to find and recover their sacred texts. The transmission indicated that the texts may be hidden off-world, but Selek was hoping to rescue those who had sent it, if possible.

He was fascinated with the idea of the Stones, not only about the secrets they might reveal about Surak’s writings but how they had remained hidden until now. T’Nedara has mentioned that Surak’s writings on Logic felt one-sided, as if something was missing. It seemed to contradict the whole philosophy of the IDIC[17] and the dual nature of Vulcan spiritual belief.

What would Surak determine be the absolute opposite of Logic, but at the same time, powerful enough to be its equal?

He was so deep in thought that he didn’t notice one of his soldiers approach him until she was almost under his nose.

“Sir, there’s an issue with the data storage.”

Selek turned towards the line of computers that lined the bridge and saw a few crew members fussing over a console. A circle of yellow light was turning next to the screen.

“What issue?” But he didn’t wait for her to answer and was next to the computer in a few strides. The Captain was leaning over the technician, who was explaining the issue while simultaneously trying to handle it.

“Someone is copying our data storage,” he said, “the information about the ship, crew, and mission is…”

“Captain,” the comms officer interrupted the technician from the other side of the bridge. “Incoming Klingon ship.”

“At least we know where our data has gone,” Captain T’Arev stood at her full height, walked over to her chair, and pressed a button on the armrest. Green[18] lights flashed on the panels about their heads.

            T’Arev pressed another button.

            “Engineering,” She said crisply. “We have a Klingon ship within range. Are you prepared to say hello?”[19]

            There was no response. The Captain furrowed her brow, and opened her mouth again, but her voice faded away.

            Selek barely had time to catch his breath before the flashing lights and chattering voices lost focus and disappeared. He saw a bright light and felt a chilling cold. The stars winked out, and he was swallowed by the darkness.


            T’Nedara had a forgetful sleep after the katra’s vision, without dreams or noise, and when her eyes flickered open the yellow sun of late morning was stretching across her bedroom floor. She sat up and hugged her knees to her chest, fighting off a sudden chill and wondering if it was too late to prepare some gespar, as protocol commands a guest.

            T’Pol was waiting in the kitchen. She was standing over the countertop, which also included two cups and a steaming kettle. T’Nedara bowed her head.

            “Rfik-kosu,” she said quietly, “Forgive me, I have not prepared breakfast in a timely manner.”

            “You may call me T’Pol,” the sub-Commander replied. She turned and opened the cooling tray. A few slices of the bulbous fruit had already been chilled, and they were placed on the counter between the two of them.

T’Nedara stood motionless as T’Pol poured the tea. It was customary to use replicators, but this retained some classic tradition for their first meal together. It was safe to say it was the first of many rituals they would share. 

  “I would also request that you specify why you refer to me with a title reserved for a female ancestor.” T’Pol said, as they nibbled at the tart, fig-like fruit. “We share a family bond, but not one of blood.”

“If I can use your tablet to access the Infirmary records, I believe I can explain. They should have been saved on an external server if the computers were damaged.”

It was only a matter of a passkey and biometric scan. T’Nedara was hopeful this meant the computers on the lower floors were still intact.

The record appeared, and she stepped back to let T’Pol have a look. 

            At first, the sub-Commander said nothing, but her eyes widened. T’Nedara wondered how she would react. Perhaps they weren’t even sure if Selek could have children.

            “Your use of the title is now apparent,” she said, her tone revealing nothing about her feelings on the news she was going to be a grandmother. “However, I also understand why the Cult of Maripol attacked the temple, and more specifically, why you were targeted.”

            T’Pol nodded towards the tablet.

            This was the complete record this time, the one that she and T’Krella had left to complete when they went to bed.

            Maripol was one of the lesser gods of the Vulcan pantheon, and she was a malevolent creature that demanded blood sacrifice. Her most sacred offering was the hearts of twins because of their auspicious connotation. Multiple births are not as common among Vulcans as they are in humans.

T’Nedara hid her joy and excitement behind a calm facade of fear and guilt.

            “They must have been watching the system,” she said quietly. “They would have had access to anyone we had treated.”

            There was another light flashing on the screen. A soft blue square, slowly glowing bright and dim again in the corner.

            “I have a private message,” T’Nedara tried to hide her excitement. She knew it was from Selek. Heedless of T’Pol’s eyes looking over her shoulder, she opened it in a separate screen that projected an image from the original.

            “His ship has left orbit,” She said, reading his heartfelt words and remembering the heat of the kitchen.

            “The sooner the departure, the sooner the return,” T’Pol quietly recited an old Vulcan saying as she reviewed a larger, brighter screen. It was the plans of the monastery with the damaged areas marked and annotated.

            “It seems most of the structural damage has been confined to the Upper Spire,” T’Pol said, as she examined the schematics. “It seems the integrity of the base and lower floors are sound.”

            T’Nedara had already turned to a third screen that led to a private server the residents of the temple would access for messages, references, and basic information. The program was usually a hive of activity, reflecting the busy schedules of various floors and an inventory of supplies for each. Now it was strangely quiet, but some of her colleagues had left a sentence or two on an electronic bulletin board to confirm their survival. A few asked their friends and fellow monks to answer in kind. Many were still missing.

            “You are the Mother Superior now,” T’Pol said quietly. “Overseeing the reconstruction of the temple and rallying the survivors is your responsibility.”

            T’Nedara was grateful to have a distraction from her other troubles. She was happy to see the quick responses from her initial messages. Eventually the conversation was distilled into three important issues; the new design and rebuilding of the temple, the investigation into how the Cult of Maripol had infiltrated their systems, and the additional security to prevent such attacks in the future.

            “The new Head of Security had some thoughts about this,” one of the guards mentioned. “The files he started are available on the main computer.”

            Selek had mentioned he thought the temple was too old-fashioned when it came to safety. He had made some future plans and discussed them with his immediate subordinates. The ones that had not gone into space formed a separate group and began making their plans to implement changes.

            T’Nedara decided to revisit the site in the afternoon. T’Pol asked to help with the security measures and also offered to contact Koss to help with the new temple plans.

Other pressing issues, like interring the dead and clearing the rubble, had to be seen to before any other ideas could be implemented. T’Nedara asked that everyone available come to the site to help with identification so the rites could be performed and the bodies interred.

It had been a few hours since T’Nedara had first risen from Selek’s bed, seemed that everyone had their orders and plans for the day. She made a few personal notes regarding the injured that were unable to return, and would make a list and start making personal visits to the various hospitals and clinics.

T’Pol had her own paperwork to organize. Koss had sent her a letter along with some sketches and schematics of the temple. The base was sound, and the foundations were intact, It was the upper floors that had seen most of the damage, which he admitted was strange. It was illogical for the cult to have destroyed a part of the temple that was barely in use.

T’Pol wrote a letter in return, saying that she and the future Mother Superior would be returning to the temple shortly. She didn’t reveal any other details, and wasn’t sure when or how to bring up the cult’s real motive. The investigation would continue, and it was likely T’Nedara would divulge the information to the proper authorities at the appointed time.

Both of them seemed to have their afternoon schedules organized.

            “We’ll have a light meal, then make our way to the site,” T’Pol suggested, turning to a replicator. “Do you like plomeek soup?”

            “I do indeed,” T’Nedara replied, “I have a story to tell you about that, actually.”

            She talked about meeting Selek in the kitchen and the grilled plomeek root.

            “He’s clever,” T’Pol said, trying not to sound too smug. “Don’t let his feigned detachment trick you into thinking he’s uncurious.”

            “It feels like a human trait,” she said gently. “To pretend emotional stoicism through silence. Um…what is that you’re putting in your tea?”

            “It’s a fruit from earth.” T’Pol had removed another tray from the replicator with two cups and something that was bright yellow. It had a sharp but pleasant odor and seemed to bring its own light into the room.

“It’s called a lemon.”

            “A fruit from earth? But that means…doesn’t it have sugar[20] in it?”

            “Very little, but enough to take the edge off, as they say. It’s something I learned while serving on the Enterprise. What Captain Archer didn’t know never hurt him.”

            “What was the most difficult part of dealing with humans?”

            “The smell,” T’Pol said, without hesitation. “I had to have candles burning in my room almost all the time.”

            “I hear they’re emotive but withdrawn.” T’Nedara said. “It seems contradictory.”

“They speak in metaphors and symbols and never mean what they say,” T’Pol raised her voice and closed her eyes for a moment as if in pain. “They have a hundred thousand languages on that planet, and they still can’t communicate.”

 “It would have driven me to the brink of madness.” T’Nedara lifted her own tea to her lips, impressed by T’Pol’s outburst.

            “The humans have a saying,” T’Pol said gravely, as she dropped the lemon slice into her cup. “In space, no one can hear you scream.”


[17] Infinite Diversity, Infinite Combinations

[18] Green is the color Vulcans use for alarms and warning lights.

[19] A reference to an event that marked First Contact between Klingons and Vulcans near the planet H’atoria in 2016.

[20] Sugar acts as an inebriate to Vulcans, like alcohol does to humans.

Chapter 3 – A Personal Decision


Selek was expected to take Sekir’s place as Captain of the Temple Guard, a ceremonial term that would have been Head of Security in a less traditional setting. The Mother Superior was only too happy to have a talented warrior in the position. The circumstances had also freed her from the clutches of Matron T’Urel. but even without the connection of her son, as one of the Temple benefactors she still had some influence in the process.

The Matron had instead honored Selek by suggesting he take an assignment off-world to prove himself. The real intention was much more insidious. It was intended to separate the couple under the guise of a compliment, and it wasn’t lost on either of them.

Selek wasn’t sure he liked the idea of working on a starship, even if it was just temporary. Perhaps it was a hangover of adolescent rebellion against his mother, but he had no interest in pursuing a career in space.

It was only one trip, the briefing specified, and little more than a routine fetch quest, should everything go according to plan. The Kir’Shara of Surak had been discovered by Jonathan Archer[8], so it was fitting that Selek, the son of the Vulcan who had served as Archer’s Sub-Commander, would honor his mother by fulfilling a similar mission.

            Selek was displeased with the nature of the mission itself, but the subject matter took hold of him. The collection dated from the Time of Awakening, and when Those Who Marched Beneath the Raptor’s Wings[9] had left the planet, they had taken these rare artifacts with them. They were to be retrieved, by force if necessary and returned to Vulcan where they belonged.

            “It’s an important mission,” T’Nedara said, when she saw him standing at their window and pouting.

            The upper floors of the Tinsha Monastery had formerly been where the acolytes stayed, but there were fewer adherents these days and the Dormitories were now downstairs, close to the Infirmaries. They were in disrepair, covered in dust, the curtains either gone or hanging in tatters, but this little corner had been a gift from the Mother Superior.

The young couple had fixed it up into a rustic but functional apartment, and the cool wind always blew in from the surrounding mountains. 

“You said they were interesting pieces of history, and they must be returned.”

            “I did,” he said, brightening a bit and turning to her as he spoke. “I’m honored to go, for my mother’s legacy and for the Temple.”

            He hesitated for a moment.

            “The timing is unfortunate,” he said, his voice was a mix of tenderness and frustration. “This is not a time for me to leave my mate, and even before her Mother Superior has eaten the sacred V’Shal.”

            “You are forbidden to purchase even a single halak[10] on your humble salary,” the words were harsh but her voice was gentle, and she put her arms around him as she spoke. “And there is no need for it. I am an orphan, with no bloodline or ancestral name, and the highest authority of this temple will defer to the ancient rites.”

            Selek was content with her answer, but in his own mind he resolved to have a word with the Mother Superior before his departure.

            “Your wisdom honors me,” he said.

            “Your courage is my strength,” she replied.

            He withdrew from her embrace.

            “There’s no safer place than the Temple for me,” she looked into his eyes as she spoke. “Is your concern one of Vulcan duty, or human sentiment?”

            He looked back at her, and blinked slowly, considering the true meaning behind her question.

She leaned in closer.

            “You don’t have to wear them now,” she said. “Why here, in our home?”

            “A human would say, “force of habit.” He replied. “Perhaps I shall grow too comfortable, and walk out into the Central Dias with my father’s eyes.”

            “Nobody here would judge you,” she said. “They know about your mother.”

            “It seems to be the secret everyone knows,” Selek turned away from the window as she spoke and walked over to the sink and mirror.

            T’Nedara looked out over the mountains and desert. The lights of Shi’Kahr, Vulcan’s biggest city, twinkled in the distance. A cold breeze, a remnant of the desert night, blew into the apartment. She shivered and turned to get her shawl, but Selek was already there, wrapping it around her shoulders.

            She looked at his eyes, now free of the plastic covering that hid their exotic color, and they shone blue in the dim light.

            There weren’t many who had seen Selek’s eyes without their lenses. The first time T’Nedara had seen them, they were standing on one of the balconies that lined the upper floors, in one of the quiet corners designated for their meetings.

            He told her a story about his early days at school, when he had casually asked the other students what color eyes they had under their lenses. What followed was a change of schools and an increase in private tutors for a few years.

“Are they really so different?” She asked.

“There are those who would refer to them as a deformity,” he said. “It could be seen as a defect in a Vulcan. It’s a logical assumption.”

T’Nedara frowned.

“I don’t agree. It sounds like an illogical assumption to me. They seem to work well enough.”

“The lenses don’t affect my vision.” He explained. “I can see without them.”

“Their function is only cosmetic?”

“Yes. And I can wear them for days.”

She hesitated for a moment. He secretly dreaded what he knew she would say next.

“Can I see them?”

Selek took it for granted that his eyes were disturbing, even unsightly to Vulcans, but he didn’t want to tell her no. Some of his previous friends and lovers had been drawn to him because of the rumors about his ancestry, but very few of them had seen his eyes.

“I’ll show you one, so I can put it back quickly,” he said, thinking it was a decent compromise. He leaned closer to one of the glass panes that separated the inner balcony from outer one, and peered at his reflection for a moment before carefully pinching his right iris and lifting the lens away.

She caught her breath and for a moment his heart sank. Was she shocked and horrified, or surprised and fascinated?

T’Nedara leaned in, and looked at it carefully.

“I would almost expect to see through it,” she said. “It’s not the blue of a bird’s egg. It’s more like the color of ice or water.”

He hid a smile of relief as he bowed his head and slipped the lens back in.

“When humans say, “the eyes are the windows to the soul” it’s a philosophical expression, not a literal description.”

“I’m aware of that,” she raised an eyebrow.

“I think I was making a joke,” he raised his eyes, now both returned to their typical Vulcan obsidian.

            What followed was a conversation about the human use of confusing metaphors until T’Nedara was called away to the late-night ritual, one of the many daily events that she was responsible for officiating.

The next few days included several briefings in preparation for his quest, along with his usual duties as the new Captain of the Guard. Selek was compelled to choose a small team of soldiers to accompany him, although the crew of the ship that would take them to their destination was provided by the Vulcan High Command.

The Mother Superior and his closest fellows in the guard helped him decide who was best suited for the trip based on medical records and experience in outer-space. It was after this briefing that Selek was able to approach the temple matron privately.

“Mother Superior,” he said, as his peers filed out of the room, “I would ask for a word.”

She took her seat on the raised seat on the ornate dais at the head of the plain stone table that stretched into the center of the room. Selek rose from his seat.

He stood before her and bowed his head.

“Speak, Selek.”

“I wish to extend my deepest gratitude,” he began, “for your…”

“Silence,” she interrupted him sharply, but politely. “You owe me nothing. I have done no more than protocol asks of me. It was my duty to oversee the Kal If Fe, and I have done so. The rite was yours to win or lose. You have a question, what is it?”

“I understand…that as a secondary consort, T’Nedara would have been permitted to stay in the temple, only to go to the home of her husband if summoned.”  

The Mother Superior nodded.

“But…if a resident of the temple were to marry her, even as a principal wife…”

“Selek,” she interrupted him again, her tone softer, “you are a novice in the Temple ways. Know this. As a secondary wife, T’Nedara would have stayed in the temple. However, she would never have been permitted to ascend to the role of Mother Superior.

“The temple also has its politics,” she spoke more gently now, seeing the disappointment in his face. “You may live by her side as lover and consort, guard her person, father her children. But if she is married, rivals will claim she cannot have two loyalties. They are correct. It is a logical conclusion.”

There was a moment of silence in the chamber. Orange light flooded over the table as the sun dipped lower.

She rose to her feet, and Selek took a knee.

“It is I who should thank you,” and her voice grew strong again as she stepped towards him. “Only a few days ago, this temple was under the thumb of a petty tyrant. Your pain and sacrifice have freed us.”

He bowed his head, and she reached forward and gently touched the same pressure points on his face. There were still bruises and scratches where he had been wounded during the fight, and in only a few more days he would rise into the dark underworld of space.

“I can see your love for her is sincere,” she said quietly. “And that she is joyous in your presence.”

“I sensed her pain during the duel,” he spoke without raising his head. “She was helpless, watching me fight, seeing my blood run, and standing nearby doing nothing more than watching.”

“You saw her?”

“My state made hyper-aware of everything. I even remember the smell of the dust.”

“Every god has a mirror image,” the Mother Superior replied by quoting an ancient Vulcan proverb. “The time will come when she will be the one in a fight to the death, and it is you who will stand by helplessly. Should the fates be merciful, she will survive and triumph, as you did.”

Selek raised his head and looked at her with a raised eyebrow.

“It will be clear to you in time,” she said, and removed her hand. “But I sense there is one more thing you wish to say.”

“Yes,” he said, “After the duel, when they brought me to the infirmary, and T’Nedara revived me. I saw you, when you closed the curtains and herded the others away. There was that one you hit with your stick…”

“That’s enough,” Mother Superior spoke sharply to hide a snicker. “The mating rites are sacred, and not for public display. For what are we, Terrans?”

Now it was Selek’s turn to bow his head and stifle a quiet laugh. Of course, the Mother Superior probably knew his ancestral secret and she was teasing. He dared to think she might actually be fond of him.

“Your path is clear. Rise and go, Selek, Lord of the Lirpa, and Consort of the Intended Mother Superior.”

He wished her a pleasant evening and took his leave.

The sun dipped below the mountains and the inner chambers of the temple grew dark.    

Selek was pleasantly surprised to find a communication from Koss waiting for him in his personal mailbox that same evening.

Selek;

I was pleased to hear your recent news and have recently been in contact with your mother. T’Pol also sends her regards, and she is currently on assignment off-planet but expects to return within a few solar days.

T’Ona[11] and I are currently attending to our eldest as he begins his first year at the Vulcan Science Academy, but I will visit the Monastery as soon as possible. Vorick and his brother also send greetings.

I am told the Mother Superior has an impressive library, and it would please me to see it.

May your journey be free of incident.

Koss


There were two places at the Monastery where a shuttlecraft could land or take off; either from the roof, and in a space at ground level outside. A brief ceremony was planned to send Selek and his team away outside of the doors on the ground level.

They met quietly in a dark alcove before the gong sounded. T’Nedara was in her white robe and veil, lined with simple black embroidery in the shape of Vulcan calligraphy. Selek wore the uniform of a soldier, but dressed for travel with a cape and traditional helmet.

Goodbyes had been said, but T’Nedara wanted one more thing.

“What you showed me when we saw the mover,” she whispered. “Do you remember?”  

“The movie,” He corrected her gently. “Of course I do. I was bound to you in that moment.”

She lifted her veil, and he leaned forward to press his lips against hers. This exotic gesture was a human custom that would be unfamiliar to Vulcans for another hundred years.

He stood up, helped straighten her veil, and couldn’t hold back a smile. The early light of the sun was behind her, creating a soft ring of light above her head.

His lifted his hand and offered her two fingers, and she met them with her own, a conventional Vulcan gesture between lovers.

T’Nedara turned and strode into the breezy open space. The shuttle and two of its uniformed attendants waited at attention outside. The Mother Superior was already there, standing in front of them, and her intended successor bowed before her.

The six attendants that had followed her parted and turned, standing to the side, forming a column. T’Nedara turned back towards the dark alcove.

At this moment, Selek stepped out of the shadows towards the shuttlecraft, followed by his team of twelve soldiers. He led them and they walked behind him in two lines of six, their steps mathematically perfect as they walked to the raised platform.

The Mother Superior stepped forward. The bells rang, and they bowed low. The Mother Superior addressed him using his official designation as well as another title that she had personally given him after the Kal If Fe.

“Selek of the Lirpa, Captain of the Tinsha Temple Guard,” She said, “Your mission is one of great honor. To restore our culture and scripture is one of the greatest endeavors any Vulcan can undertake.

Your courage honors us.”

Selek raised his eyes as T’Nedara stepped forward. He raised his wrists, and she placed the ceremonial bracelets on them, etched with the traditional calligraphy that spelled out the temple blessings.

Her hands lingered for a moment. She raised her eyes.

“The words of Surak protect you,” she spoke gently, but her voice carried over the platform.

“Your wisdom is my strength,” He replied. “No challenge will bar my return.”

The last words he spoke to her were more personal than ceremonial. The gongs rang and the team filed into the shuttlecraft. Selek was the last to board.

The monks filed to the bottom of the raised platform and watched the ship rise into the air and soar upward. Their ceremony over, they walked back towards the temple.

T’Nedara remained alone on the raised platform. Her veil and robe shuddered in the wind but her body stood like a vestige carved in stone. She continued to look into the sky until the sun had fully risen and the bell for the morning prayers had sounded.


The shuttlecraft lifted towards orbit.

Now they were in the hands of the Vulcan High Command. The briefing regarding the mission began in earnest, and in more detail.

The artifact was a collection of writings dedicated to Surak. Not only dictated by him personally, but with extensive notes and commentary by his students and colleagues that was equally valuable.  

The secret group of Surak worshippers hiding on Remus couldn’t keep the scriptures safe anymore. They had already been ciphered and hidden, in a form that was yet to be revealed, and “the Stone” was simply a nickname the artefact had been given for the time being.

 A desperate message on a long-dead line in an obsolete code, which had arrived after months of delay, could tell no more.

These would have been outlawed by the Romulan government, in ancient times as well as the present. Any Romulan that helped to hide it would have been executed and the artifact itself would be destroyed if it was found.

The crew spent several days being debriefed on the finer details of the mysterious object in question. It was assumed they were in digital form, but the ancient records being in hard copy was a possibility that could not be ruled out.

Selek quietly sent two text messages to T’Nedara every day while they were in orbit. One in the morning, when he first rose from bed, and another at night as he returned to it. He knew it would have seemed excessive to anyone monitoring their communications, and certainly someone would have to be to ensure the mission’s secrecy, but he felt strangely defiant about it.

It’s not that Vulcans don’t have feelings as an inherent trait. Their history demonstrates they often have the strongest of feelings. They are trained to control their emotions, and this does overlap into suppression for untrained or weaker minds. Selek hid his lonely despair behind the mask his mother had taught him to wear, the same one that hid his strange and terrible eyes.

The time came for their ship to descend into the deeper reaches of space, and he wrote his final message to his mate. During the mission, there would be no communication, and messages from deep space took weeks to reach Vulcan anyway.

He stared at the blank screen for a few minutes. There was nothing he could say that was not already said. No instructions or practical advice, nothing but sentiment. 

Selek’s thoughts turned to his mother. She would have returned to Vulcan by now. He wondered if it was too late to send her a message, then reconsidered when he thought of the mission’s secrecy. There was little he could tell her about it. For a long time, she resisted telling him anything about the Enterprise. Stories started to trickle out when he was a teenager.

Selek remembered when they spoke about his older sister, a child conceived and born through artificial means.[12]

“We called her Elizabeth,” T’Pol had said, her voice taking on an emotional tone. “Tripp was inconsolable when she passed.”

Selek stopped thinking and let his fingers speak through the monochrome screen.

He hid a smile as he sent the message on its way. He recalled that fateful night when they finally met, and hoped that she would understand his awkward attempt at humor.

His initial title was Guard Initiate, and he had only been on regular duty for a few weeks. The building still confused him somewhat, and from top to bottom it had gone through many changes over the centuries.

The kitchens were traditionally on the main floor, closer to the lava pools that ancient Vulcans used for heat and energy. It was old, almost a cave in form and shape, and likely first area on the list for modernization.

            It had been a long day of learning about his new home and fulfilling his various duties. The hour was late, and he was looking forward to a quiet meal and a warm sleeping robe. But his night was just getting started.

            The old wooden door to the kitchen was loose, and it surprised him when it swung open at his touch. What shocked him even more was the person standing on the other side of it.

            Selek had seen T’Nedara before, but they had not spoken nor had they been introduced. She was standing in front of a burning stovetop element, topped with an oversized silver pot, and she turned to look at him when the door opened.

They made eye contact. Then the door swung shut and almost hit Selek in the face. When he opened it again, she was almost smiling at him. A human might have laughed.

            “Good evening,” she said politely. “Mind the door, it’s been loose for a while now.”

            He nodded gravely, trying to salvage his pride.

            The first time Selek had noticed T’Nedara it was as part of the ritual procession that led the evening services. His eyes followed her all the way down the open stairs to the glossy stone floor. He rationalized that it was the simple but graceful clothing of the monks that drew his eye, and nothing more.

            That night in the kitchen she was not dressed in her formal wear, but a frayed, frumpy smock that looked like a pillowcase with three holes in the top. It was as if the universe had put her in shabby attire as part of a conspiracy to prove him wrong.

He tried not to stare and was completely unsuccessful.

“Aren’t you Selek?” She asked, peering into the pot. Steam rose from whatever she was stirring.

“Yes,” His breath returned, and he was relieved to find he could speak. “You’re T’Nedara, the Intended Mother Superior. I am…”

His breath fell short again. He dragged it forward with some effort.

“I am most honored to meet you.”

“Yes, likewise.” She barely looked at him. “I wanted to thank you for the addition to the pantry,” she added, and nodded towards a lush plant in a clay vase near the stove.

Selek had brought it with him as a friendly donation to his new colleagues. It was a simple cutting at first, but it flourished in the humid air and the thick, heavy sunlight of its new desert home.  

“I was thinking about adding it to the plomeek soup.” At this point she furrowed her brow and lifted a large, dripping chunk of brown root from the simmering broth.

Plomeek soup is more often made from the blossoms and dried seeds of the plant, although roots are edible if prepared correctly. This method of boiling a root to mush wasn’t completely incorrect, but would have taken hours to render into some kind of mashable paste resembling soup.

Selek cleared his throat to keep from laughing and put on his best serious face.

“Perhaps…I know an optimal preparation method.”

She handed him the long metal fork that had the plomeek on the end of it and looked on with interest. He sliced the root into perfectly even slices, perhaps showing off with the knife a bit, then picked up the cutting board and fork and strode confidently towards the lava pits. He slipped his shoes off and then stepped from the cool stone of the kitchen to the hot volcanic rock. Even at this distance, several meters away, the magma was radiating heat like its own gigantic stove.

Vulcans grow up in an environment of arid heat and molten earth, and many of Selek’s trials as a soldier involved both.

T’Nedara raised her eyebrows but didn’t speak as he stepped over the hot sand and crouched by one of the rocks. He laid the reddish-brown slices out in a row, and they sizzled, exuding plumes of aromatic steam.

She watched in fascination.

“The smell is very pleasant,” she said, barely hiding her surprise. Plomeek was often boiled into soup that was nearly odorless and tasteless.

“In my opinion, this is a superior way to prepare plomeek,” he said. “However, I have never actually tried using hot stones myself.”

“Where did you get the idea?”

“I remember the ancient Proto-Vulcan glyphs that joined the living with the light and heat of the lava pits during my military trials in Gol. They were used for cooking, the historians said, and I resolved to try it someday.”

They only needed a minute on each side to toast up nicely on the burning rocks. Selek started to gather them back on the cutting board.

“I am very impressed. How fortunate that you would meet me here tonight.”

The sound of her voice washed over him like cool water. He followed it back to its source, carrying the grilled plomeek like a sacred offering.

“I am more than honored to serve the ranking monk,” he made eye contact with her as he spoke, but only for a second, all that his thudding heart could bear for the moment. He could hear her voice through his stinging vision.

“Please call me T’Nedara, and join me for a late supper.”

They talked into the night, nestled in the warm darkness of an active volcano. She told him everything she knew about the monastery, including its long history. He spoke of life as a teacher and trainer in Gol, but said little of being the son of sub-Commander T’Pol other than how he intended to move out of her shadow with a distinct career path.

The lush green plant was called basil, he explained, and eventually it would have long, white flowers. It was of Terran origin, a keepsake from the Enterprise, but he wasn’t sure where she had acquired it.

Late supper became an early breakfast. They prepared to take their leave.

“I’m sure we’ll meet again,” she said, “but until then, do you have any other questions?”

“I do, and I understand if it’s too personal. I noticed you are not wearing the usual temple attire.”

“It’s a vegetable sack,” she replied, without missing a beat, not ruffled in the slightest. “The plant fibers used to weave them are actually very comfortable.”

“How brilliantly efficient,” he commented.

“I am honored,” she answered, and bowed her head to hide a smile.

He let her leave first, so she couldn’t see him stride awkwardly back to his quarters. It wasn’t quite a limp, but anyone would notice that he had injured the bottom of his feet somehow.

T’Nedara

This is the last note I can send for you in some time. I recall our first meeting in the kitchen, and I still see you there, standing before the fire. My logic fails when faced with The Engulfment.[13] I will take this memory with me into the stars. 

            I have never seen a more beautiful sack of vegetables. Please be well.

            Selek


[8] Star Trek: Enterprise, “The Forge”, “Awakening”, “Kir’Shara.”

[9] The Vulcans who rejected the teachings of Surak and left their home planet to evolve into Romulans.

[10] The main ingredient in V’Shal dinner, a meal traditionally served by a Vulcan male to his intended in-laws.

[11] Koss’ second wife.

[12] Star Trek: Enterprise, S4E21, “Terra Prime.”

[13] Known as “shon-ha-lock” in the Vulcan tongue, what humans might call “love at first sight.”